Thursday, July 30, 2009

Life is incredible.

Came home from an amazing seminar tonight with so many things to say, to Anthony in particular.

I called him when all the participants when into groups to open up to him about how I've been. Really, his only response was that we should scale back and just be friends for a while.

I wanted to be upset and disappointed because that completely took me off guard. But now, I'm fine.

I want to call him tomorrow and tell him that he's right. That it's apparent that what we want don't align. His actions have never aligned with what he's said to me and I can't put up with someone whose actions don't follow with what they say they're committed to. I have too much life to live and love to give to deal with that kind of drama. I'm a strong woman who doesn't need a man to complete her, but I've gotten to a point in my life that I want that partnership. He's not ready for it. He does an excellent job of telling me what I want to hear, but I need someone that wants to spend time with me and wants me around even when he's with his friends. I don't expect to always have the same friends or anything, but I want my friends to accept the guy I'm dating and get along with him just as much as I want his friends to accept and get along with me.

I'm an amazing person. Everyone is really, but I won't go building superficial relationships anymore. Yeah, I can be pleasant and warm and welcoming to people and it's totally ok if they're not towards me, but I won't keep up with relationships that have no depth. I love being human. I love what I get out of my participation with Landmark. I will always look for how I can make a difference with someone or circumstances. I have plenty of friends to keep my company and things to do to keep me occupied than to have a "romantic" relationship be so superficial. I'm not about that.

I have issues with opening up to people. Trust is something that I give to people freely with things other than my heart. I hardly ever trust someone enough to give them my heart. Those are people who have shown that what they are committed to is just being a stellar human being who isn't out to take things from people but to give something back.

Anthony has never shown that to me. I gave him the benefit of the doubt but no more. I refuse to settle for something that is less than the best as far as partnership is concerned.

God, I love Zanz, the people I assist with and anyone and everyone that is out to make a difference with people.

To Hell with self! Thank you for being who you are so I can be who I am. I mean that to anyone and everyone that wants to listen.

To quote a blogger(ThePanicRoom) that I find most inspiring...

"With all the love in the universe",

Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Flying leap

I guess I was bound and determined to be the next one married.

Evidence from my friend's wedding in December. Thought I'd share.
See my feet... completely off the ground.

Time for seminar!

Monday, July 27, 2009

Rockies vs Giants.

Not much to say, really. Just been busy living life and being away from the house and computer. I can't wait to get a new phone tho, so I can update on the go!

Went to the Rockies game against the Giants on Friday with friends then went to Jackson's Hole across the street from the stadium for all-you-can-drink for 10 bucks. It ruled. Met up with other friend's afterward and danced at Lodo's. Took the lightrail to my car and was judging people left and right the whole way there. It was fun and entertaining until I got to my connecting line to my car and some dude was pissing me off. People really need to grow up.

Went to church tonight after work and finally connected with some people. Went to Uptown Tavern from some drinks then over to Steuben's for some grub and more drinks. I was fun and entertaining. Working tomorrow afternoon.

That's all for now.

Muchos besos!

My friend Krista and I.

Stephen and I.

Some of our other peeps...

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

MHMF 2009

MHMF 2009 was the SHIT and a highlight of my life, as far as concerts go.

I'm so doing it again next year!! Here are some highlights that I put in spoilers, simply because it's a lot of pictures:
SPOILERS! (Click to view)

Waiting for Incubus to get on stage.

The crowd.

Waiting for Tool but it just got to be too hectic during the show to try to take pictures. These stupid fucking Widespread fans decided it was an awesome idea to mosh right next to me. Personally, I don't get it but maybe that's just me...

Watching them set up for Devotchka on Sunday.

The photographers.


Checking out the lights for Matisyahu.

Some chick Tweeted that she was freaked out that he was wearing a baseball cap. LoL

If you have never heard him beatbox, you really need to check that shit out.

Matis crowd surfing.

The crowd.

Pepper on my way out. I was too beat to stay for The Fray.

Holy crap it was so much fun!! And SO WORTH the burnt scalp I have.

Stupidly, I thought to bring a hat both days but not to wear it. I was lame, but whatever.

Muchos besos!