Friday, October 29, 2010

Got my first scammer today

So, I put an extra camera for sale on CL and someone offered me more money than I was asking and wanted me to send an invoice via Paypal.  Well, turns out it was a scam.  I called Customer Service and forwarded the emails to

I'm so glad I investigate these things.

Babysitting was cancelled for tonight.  A little bummed but I can get stuff done so all is well.

Decided it's finally time I do something about photography.

That's about it.  Going to the halloween store to find some facial hair for tomorrow.


Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Just a quick hello

Then off to working-on-a-paper I go!

Sometimes I don't think I have a lot to say but yesterday, I had the urge to blog, mostly about my day.  I have a lot to say about my daily life sometimes, hence why I'm always Tweeting.  It's kind of ridiculous sometimes because I can't think that anyone wants to hear my random thoughts throughout the day.  Just like with this blog, I have a whopping 1 follower.  Ah well.  I don't really do it for anyone other than me.  It gives me an excuse to be online rather than on Facebook playing Farmville.

My cousin's wife (I guess cousin-in-law) accepted me on FB and I got to see recent pictures of my baby cousin.  She's so beautiful!  Because of friends and famiily out there, I want to attempt living in California again.  As much as I miss Florida, (the heat, humidity, family, FOOTBALL, the Springs) I have this intense desire to try out California again, but under different circumstances.  I'm torn as to whether to go there now or wait until I'm finished with school.

And with school, I'm on the fence about whether to stick it out at CCD (I LOVE the campus, where it's located, my Biology teacher and the diversity) but Red Rocks Community College is involved in this program...  Scratch that last thought.  Did some investigation.  Turns out, CCD is a part of the WUE (Western Undergraduate Exchange) where I can go to one of 150 schools in 15 different states and get reduced-rate tuition.  The top of my list: CSU - East Bay, Western Washington University, and University of Hawaii at Manoa.  At least, those would be the ideal locations.  We'll see.  I still have some time to do some investigation.

That's about all that's going on.  I just got off the phone not too long ago with my dad.  He's sending me money to help for school expenses.  This is the most I have ever needed his help and this is the closest I have ever been to what it's like to NOT have to be on my own.  Meaning, I have friends and have heard of other people having their parents literally put them through college.  I have had to do it on my own with a little help here and there from my parents.  The sacrifices my dad is willing and able to make on behalf of his family is huge.  He has, perhaps, saved me (or ruined me, depending on who is looking at it) from being with a man who is less than worthy.  I have my dad to thank for my successes and my own idea of my self-worth.

Who has the greatest positive influence in your life?  No need to answer, just something to think about.


Tuesday, October 26, 2010

Well, I have no choice.

Not really but kind of.  My gift membership on SG has elapsed (I had no idea a year had already passed), so now that I want to blog, I must blog here.  Not a bad deal though.  Maybe this will get me into the habit of coming back here more often.

I'll miss SG though.  I don't really know why considering I don't interact with a huge amount of people on there.  Maybe it's the boobs.

Either way, I've been thinking a lot lately about my future.  I'm in school and barely getting by and the thought of photography as a major has always had my attention to a certain degree.  I have always wanted to get a science degree (I am a biology major) for quite a few reasons, top three being: 1.) that I love the reactions I get from people when I tell them what my major is, 2.) the flexibility of what having a general science degree entails (meaning I can do ANYTHING with it) and 3.) the fact that I can do anything with it... though I pretty much already included that with number 2.

But I'm starting to get to the point where not only do I want to increase my skill level at composing, capturing and producing visually and emotionally stimulating images but to eat, sleep, breath and live something completely creative, satisfying, emotionally taxing and just plain awesome.  The lives of some of the photographers I've come across on the internet (I'll admit, I don't know very many professional photographers personally) is inspiring.  I'm sure they may not feel the same way, but to me, someone who has always been surrounded by the analytical and intellectually rigorous, it is a beautiful life and I want to experience it first hand.

So, knowing I want to steer in that direction, I'm getting to the point of "do I do this now" or "do I wait until I'm finished with the first degree I already started."  It's a hard decision, and I know either way I go, I'll end up in a place completely unrecognizable to where I am now.  (Having wanderlust makes following through with tasks already  in progress a little difficult.)

On a side note, I don't think I'm very mature.  There are times where I think I've matured far beyond where I ever was, but sometimes I feel like I have progressed laterally and not in a forward motion.  And sometimes, like today, I wonder if I really am as good as I think I am.  Like I know I'll never have an unbiased opinion of myself but am I really as likeable as I think I am, or as great as I already think I am.  But I digress.

Anyway, those are my random thoughts of the night.  Just finished rewriting a "journal entry" for my Humanities class on The Odyssey.  Good stuff.  We didn't read the entire 24 books but since I own it, I think I might start from the beginning with The Illiad.

Hope whoever reads this, you have a great night!


Friday, October 22, 2010


I've decided that when I feel inclined to blog, I need to redirect myself back to Blogger.

So, one of my managers called me this morning to see if I wanted to work 6 hours tonight.  Is it bad that I refused because of the manager that's closing?  I feel a little bad, and I do need the money but I can't stand this chick.  She's awful to work with.  It's really uncomfortable, but at the same time, I do love my job and my babysitting gig I do on Friday nights was cancelled.  The mom went to Phoenix for the weekend and dad decided he wanted to say in and sleep.  Awesome so I can do some stuff around the house but bummed because I don't feel like I have a real excuse to refuse hours at work.

Luckily, it's too late to call back and say I actually can.  Mom's heading out to run errands so brother needs supervision.

Do you ever feel bad for refusing to do something for some reasons?  I mean, I think I'm perfectly in my right to refuse.  I wasn't scheduled, so I'm not obligated to go in.  I could definitely use the hours, but then again, I do have things I need to do around the house, like clean, catch up on laundry, and I have major homework and studying to do this weekend.

Sometimes I dislike the fact that I always want to help.  And I feel guilty when I can't, especially in this case because I know I can.  Or could...

*sigh*  I'll just shrug my shoulders off and get done what I need to get done for me.

Happy Friday!